Oct 8 - 10

The Days Are Limited

4 short days. That's all my mom has with her boobies. One of the things that defines her as a woman. It's unfair. How can something turn against you in a year? How do you go from being healthy to being sick in a short time? It's just not fair and it sucks. 

People will reassuring me that my mom's strong and she'll be alright, but will she? How do you know? 

1 in 8. Sorry for my language, but what in the hell kind of odds are those?! Do other countries have the same chances that us Americans have to getting some sort of cancer. Like seriously, what are we doing that causing so many people to get cancer? Again, it sucks and it's not fair. But as my 3rd grade teacher, Mrs. Koch would say, "The fair's in August." So I guess we just have to deal the cards we're dealt. 

October 8

Nothing's changed. She's still getting a double mastectomy on Monday. Stupid breast cancer. I've talked to one of my good friends that's in practically all my classes about what's been going on the past 3 weeks. She's one of the best people at listening and not asking many questions. She went through hell week and understood why I was having a tough time through the school work and family issues. She didn't give me a hard time for not having work done and helping me when it was obvious that I just couldn't do anymore. But thank goodness I don't have any urgent homework to do tonight. I'll just continue to watch my mindless TV shows and relax. 

Apparently Mom went to the ITC Parent meeting tonight. I'm honestly not sure why because you'd think that after 18 years with the same gym that she could probably conduct the meeting herself. She probably went to it to get out of the house and not think about anything for a little while. But can you blame her? Not really. 

October 9

Friday, no not Friday. Friday means that I pack my bags to go home for the weekend to be there for my mom when she has surgery. Usually I look forward to Fridays, but not today. I wish I could push everything off for another week, or years and just erase everything that's happened. But that won't happen. So I have to think of what I'm going to want for the next few days. I usually always over-pack. Hey, I got it from my momma, are you surprised?! So I packed every outfit imaginable, and shoes, and jewelry, and extra stuff. :) I also had to think of anything else that Mom was going to want. Was she going to want to watch movies that I have, or read any books? Pack them anyway. Like I always say, "It's better to have something and not need it, then need something and not have it." 

After I get home and run a couple errands with Dad, we go back home and wait for Mom to get there. And we wait...and we wait. Mom had told me that she was going to stop by Wal-Mart and Hy-Vee before coming home, with food might I add, so Dad and I just continue to wait. She finally arrived home after 8 o'clock with groceries galore. My mom probably had things that needed to be done before Monday, but in good ole' Alison fashion I found a movie on. Dad and I watched The Internship while Mom put groceries away and maybe got a couple of things done. But she made the mistake of coming back into the family room right when I conveniently turned on Ocean's Eleven. I mean, come on, how can a person walk away from such a great movie?! I sucked Mom into the movie for a little while until she had the willpower to go into the other room and get things done. Bless her soul. 

October 10

2 days. 

Before I came down Mom asked if I wanted to go to Zumba. I politely declined but said I would go walk with her at the Y. However, we decided to sleep in. :) A lazy morning means watching TV while mom 'piddles' around the house doing more last minute things. Dad decided to mow the lawn while I continued to be a lazy bum. Around noon Mom and Dad take our cat to the vet to make sure there was nothing wrong with her. 

The night before we were all discussing that Mom would come in only during the good parts of Ocean's Eleven (which is practically the whole movie for those of you that haven't seen it). And that only the good parts of Top Gun was also the whole movie. But wouldn't you know it, I just happened to find Top Gun on TV. What are the chances!! So of course, I told Mom and she came running in from the kitchen to watch it. Thank goodness there were commercial breaks so she could still manage to get some stuff done. But let me tell you this, she was back in the kitchen trying to get stuff done and she was missing the beach volleyball scene!!! I mentioned this to her and she came running into the living room to watch it. Because we all know that's one of the best parts. 

Later that night we had a little bonfire going. Jim and Tracy Steffen, and Stacy Konz and kiddos all stopped by. It was so nice seeing everyone and discussing a little bit of everything. Besides it being a little windy it was comforting being around the fire and so warm. Even after everyone had left we stayed out there for a little while longer trying to solve the worlds problems because we were over our own. 



"Don't confuse your path with your destination. Just because it's stormy now doesn't mean you aren't headed for sunshine." - unknown